Destination Medicine

Monday, December 03, 2007

Pre-Match Burn Out

Well, another day has gone by and no one has called to say. . ."Yes, we want you to be a student at our school!" Which is disappointing since UTHSCSA sent out another batch of pre-match acceptances. Rumor has it they have sent out several hundred pre-match acceptances. It is one thing to always be a bridesmaid, the fifth wheel, the third man, but it sure makes you feel lousy when you are 400th in line. The system is innately unfair just because there are not enough places for qualified applicants. And I have recently met 2 people who dropped out of medical school. I know that there will be those who could be taking up a slot that is MINE, if only someone would give me a chance. I am beginning to get worried. I was fairly sure that I would receive a pre-match invite from somewhere. I'm not being cocky, I just feel like my interviews went great! I have written an admissions director to ask if I was way off base about my feelings about the interview, and if so, could I have another shot.

I hate resorting to grovelling, but I am almost to that point. I just feel like I have let my family down. There has to be something that I could have done better, that would make me a better candidate. My family made so many sacrifices over the last year and a half, just so I can follow my dream. I hope that I can reach it. I hope. . .